6am.
The vibratory sensations come on strong and I am relieved to be one step closer to actual sleep. First I have to endure this out-of-body experience and then I will sleep sleep sleep.
It feels very dark in my room. Eden is pressed up against my back, which makes me feel safer somehow. An unseen, unfelt force pushes my hip one way until my entire astral body is spinning within my physical. Then it is very suddenly propelled upward and out, and this is all without my permission or will. I consider aborting the experience, but I remind myself, like last time, that I have never been hurt in any way by these mysterious forces. So I submit.
I arrive in a new reality, hovering over Chuckanut Bay in the darkest part of night. There's a full moon hanging in the sky, just like the one I saw before bed. I see Chuckanut Mountains in the distance and the glistening water below my feet. I take a second glance. Below my feet. I am completely surprised by the sight of my legs and feet. It's just mostly just a dark silhouette, but I am so surprised. They move and hover the way they should. I feel a fondness for my toes. Seeing this image startles me into reconsidering that these out of body experiences actually could be real. Maybe real in a different sense than I had originally believed, but real nonetheless. It's been years since I considered this possibility. All it took was seeing my legs and feet and toes.
And of course, as usual my consciousness in this state is strikingly different (yet the same) as my waking consciousness, and as I was leaving this reality I used both hands to flip off the moon. I blame her for keeping me awake. Definitely not something *I* would do.
What I appreciate the most about this experience is that I have developed an ever-strengthening sense of fearlessness about this state of being. It used to shake me to the core with terror. Maybe it's because I am a mother now and I have grown into my role as protector. Or maybe it's because I am tired of being afraid. Whatever it is, I awoke self-satisfied.
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Another Earth
Second OBE in a row (two nights in a row). Eden and I are again staying at my mom's house as we were last year while Erik is at Burning Man. And for whatever reason it again brought out my conscious out of body experience potential.
I feel the paralysis state take over. I'm laying on my left side and a hand pulls my right hip down so that my astral body is now laying flat on the bed. It pisses me off and I shoo the hand away like it is just some annoying little rascal. Then I float upward to the ceiling and a strange skeletal spirit pulls me and throws me down on the floor, strangling me and pushing me into it. Just like last night I use total surrender, promising myself that I will just let whatever happens, happen, because bad spirits come around all the time trying to throw me around, but I have never once, not once, gotten hurt.
The absolute surrender instantly makes all negative forces disappear, and now I am standing in front of the sliding glass door. I learned my lesson from last night's experience, from "Example," (a man named Example came to visit me) that my OBE's need to have more meaning and intention. So of course, I call on Falkor (from the Neverending Story) and instantly he appears, and Eden and I hop on and hold onto his collar as he soars over the fence.
Now we are flying hundreds of miles above ground, through clouds and looking down at the beauty of Earth's land from far away. It is just like the movie. I feel happy and accomplished. I ask to contact my spirit guide. Somehow this intention gets forgotten and we are just practicing flying around, enjoying the ups and downs.
I slip into a dream, mostly lucid, where I am at a high school reunion and we are all sitting in a circle. An old friend and lover is there. He gives Chaya great attention, and pretends not to see me at all. It somehow helps me realize that I am dreaming and that I want to continue flying and leave this lame scene. So I shoot through the ceiling and hop back onto Falkor with Eden. I express how much I miss zooming into outer space and we are instantly projected into the dark abyss with perfectly laid out stars, and we are moving at great speed through them. There are elaborate crescent moons and purple galaxies exploding through our vision. We make great distance until a planet appears. My excitement could not possibly be contained. I was exploding with it. We approach this planet, incredibly (and quite surprisingly) similar to Earth, but with different shaped "continents." There are clouds, land and water. This indicates that if we make it within its atmosphere, we will meet extraterrestrial beings.
The excitement is pulsing through me. I am ready now. I am ready to meet these souls. We get closer and closer and closer, until the sound of my whimpering toddler tugs me directly back into my sleeping body where I listen a little more. Yep, the babe wants the boob, and there is no going back now. Aaahhhh motherhood.
I feel the paralysis state take over. I'm laying on my left side and a hand pulls my right hip down so that my astral body is now laying flat on the bed. It pisses me off and I shoo the hand away like it is just some annoying little rascal. Then I float upward to the ceiling and a strange skeletal spirit pulls me and throws me down on the floor, strangling me and pushing me into it. Just like last night I use total surrender, promising myself that I will just let whatever happens, happen, because bad spirits come around all the time trying to throw me around, but I have never once, not once, gotten hurt.
The absolute surrender instantly makes all negative forces disappear, and now I am standing in front of the sliding glass door. I learned my lesson from last night's experience, from "Example," (a man named Example came to visit me) that my OBE's need to have more meaning and intention. So of course, I call on Falkor (from the Neverending Story) and instantly he appears, and Eden and I hop on and hold onto his collar as he soars over the fence.
Now we are flying hundreds of miles above ground, through clouds and looking down at the beauty of Earth's land from far away. It is just like the movie. I feel happy and accomplished. I ask to contact my spirit guide. Somehow this intention gets forgotten and we are just practicing flying around, enjoying the ups and downs.
I slip into a dream, mostly lucid, where I am at a high school reunion and we are all sitting in a circle. An old friend and lover is there. He gives Chaya great attention, and pretends not to see me at all. It somehow helps me realize that I am dreaming and that I want to continue flying and leave this lame scene. So I shoot through the ceiling and hop back onto Falkor with Eden. I express how much I miss zooming into outer space and we are instantly projected into the dark abyss with perfectly laid out stars, and we are moving at great speed through them. There are elaborate crescent moons and purple galaxies exploding through our vision. We make great distance until a planet appears. My excitement could not possibly be contained. I was exploding with it. We approach this planet, incredibly (and quite surprisingly) similar to Earth, but with different shaped "continents." There are clouds, land and water. This indicates that if we make it within its atmosphere, we will meet extraterrestrial beings.
The excitement is pulsing through me. I am ready now. I am ready to meet these souls. We get closer and closer and closer, until the sound of my whimpering toddler tugs me directly back into my sleeping body where I listen a little more. Yep, the babe wants the boob, and there is no going back now. Aaahhhh motherhood.