For the past 5 or 6 weeks I have been suffering from reflux that has progressively gotten worse despite medication and lifestyle changes. The reflux is less a problem than the pain and damage it has caused my esophagus which sometimes bleeds and aches with searing pain. My daily reality at this moment in life is just to survive the day so I can get to next Tuesday where some gastro docs will shove a camera down my throat and figure out the what and why of it.
For this reason, when I had the following out of body experience I knew its message was related but I am still unable to decipher it.
I am laying on the bed, propped up by four pillows in a reclined seated position so that I don't get as much reflux. I have been dozing for the last 20 minutes or so and finally feel myself sinking into sleep. But my awareness stays, and then I am covered in electricity and paralysis.
I feel immobile inside my body. In prison. I have to just let go in the experience, and I swell up into a purple pink colored cloud sky, in the mist of it, just floating there. I think about how I've been waiting for this and know just what to ask the ether: "What is happening to my body and how can I heal it?" Then all of these square inch sized metallic objects begin falling from the sky almost in waterfall formation, onto my astral body, and I feel how horrid this is that it's happening to me and I know even then that my throat back in my physical body is on fire and this is what it all means.
I try to fly away from it but I can't escape. I have to accept this experience and surrender to it.
Somehow, my very first boyfriend Zack appears inside the dreamscape. He is floating there with me, just a kind and loving witness to my predicament. What is he doing here?
Other things happen but I can't remember what. I do remember having the experience all over again.. floating back to my body and then swelling upward again into that same sky, with the horrible waterfall that enters me. And then back again into unconscious dreams involving Zack, potato chips, and other unrelated things.