Bzzzz

the moon was outrageously bright last night, and i went to bed wide awake feeling fear. whenever the moon is full, its light shines through our skylight and brightly through the windows, lighting up our whole room. i know not to sleep on my back when the moon is full, because i always wake up unable to move, buzzing and electric; the moon will suck me out of my body.

i kept tossing and turning, switching sides. didn't make a difference. around 2am i finally drifted, and entered into hypnopompic imagery. there in the center of our bed was a gray alien, just staring. it looked different than i expected, and seemed to have some kind of patch over its right eye.

i pointed at it and yelled 'i KNEW you were going to come' or something like it, i honestly don't remember.

then my awareness came back to my body, and i couldn't move, pulsating electric. i was frustrated, and didn't want to leave my body. so i counted to 5 and woke myself up. i didn't move my body enough when i was awake so i just sank right back into the paralysis state. this repeated several times, when i finally forced myself to sit up and change positions. i laid on my back, thinking it would be for only a minute to just think and be awake, but i fell, like falling off a cliff, right back into the sinking, buzzing, vibrating electric state.

i was fucking frustrated. i can't describe it, and how many times this same scenario has happened. i never leave my body in the dead of night.