Granddad

November 11 2008, my grandfather died.

I felt very close to him, especially spiritually. Ever since he passed, I've been waiting for him to show up in lucid dreams and crossing my fingers for a visit during an out of body experience.

Several weeks ago I realized that months had passed and he had still not come. I realized that I needed to put more conscious intention into reaching out to him myself. I set out to have an out of body experience recently, when the time seemed right, and put a lot of intention into finding Granddad, but I slipped into a lucid-less dream instead and there was no sight of him.

Since then, I have been acknowledging that during my next OBE, my goal would be to find him.

This morning around 5am I woke up inside my sleeping body, unable to move. I heard the sounds of an intruder downstairs, rummaging through my purse. I wanted to turn to Erik and tell him there was an intruder, but when I tried to move I couldn't, so I realized that I was paralyzed and in pre-OBE mode.

I shook myself awake because it was still too dark out, and I stayed up until Erik left for work around 6:30am. I knew that I was setting myself up to have an OBE, but I didn't want to get too excited about it because I still needed some extra sleep considering I might start work today.

Around 7:30 I fell into a light sleep, and soon slipped into electric, vibrating mode. Instantly I thought of Granddad, and I began to execute the deep breathing that I have been enjoying so much in this state.

For the first time in my entire life, something close to rapture occurred during the paralysis state. I had still not left my body, but was floating inside it, deep breathing, when suddenly the room filled with Light and Love. I knew right away it was Granddad, and that this was his way of showing himself to me. I knew that I was receiving his Love, with each deep breath I took it in deep deep inside of my lungs and placed it in my heart.