alien archetype

* experience from 12.21.08 around 8am *

fell asleep around midnight last night, woke up around 6 in the morning, and stayed up for about 20 minutes. i knew it was the perfect recipe for an out of body experience, and i fell back asleep with that in mind.

i dreamed for a while.. longer than i thought i would. it was inside a moment in the inbetween worlds, a breath past The End of the dream and a light sleep away from waking up for the day, when i became aware inside my sleeping body.

i laid awake in my body, no vibrations, didn't try to move so cannot fairly say i was paralyzed, but i knew. after ten years of this state you know, without astral symptoms.

so i called on the vibrations, sort of like a dare. 'i dare you to come shake me, see how it doesn't phase me anymore'

and they came. but they came ferociously, like barking dogs, aggressive. and i felt a presence in the room, but simultaneously realized that erik had left around 6:30, so i felt the feeling you feel when you're alone in bed, unable to move, and there is someThing else there too, and they can do whatever they want to your vulnerable body.

i knew without thinking or asking, what i was perceiving was in the room. an image of the gray alien face appeared through the skylight and stars emanated from the transparent image.

the vibrations swept me away, lifted me up into a floating state. the sounds of the vibrations were incredibly loud and strong, and i would liken it to extreme bass with tremendous texture. but for the first time in my life, i felt the vibrations buzz into the bed, a physical effect! if erik had been there, it appeared he would have been shaken too [insert 'no opinion' disclaimer here].

i counted to five to try to shake myself awake as i usually do [but usually i count to 3]. i counted to 5 many many times, with no success. i felt helpless to the power of this experience. when i finally made it out, i got sucked back in to paralysis and vibrations from not getting up and shaking and slapping my face. once again i felt the presence, and once again i saw the face in the skylight.

i counted to 5 several more times until i finally mustered enough focus and will power to wake myself up. and i sat up in bed and looked around the room. empty. pretty winter wonderland outside. no stars or alien in the skylight. just peace.