i woke at 5:30 this morning to the sensation i can't seem to name -- the electric, vibrating paralysis.
immediately, i counted to 5 and shook myself awake. it was still dark out and i wasn't in the mood to face my fears.
i got up and walked around for a couple minutes to shake the state off of me and climbed back into bed.
soon after, i found myself vibrating again. this time i wanted to see how long i could handle it for, but i was disturbed when i felt the sensation of someone lightly touching my lower back. so i did the count and tried to sit up and shake the state off.
again, i sunk into the electric sensations, but this time i heard what i could only describe as morse code, and it wouldn't stop. so i forced myself to wake.
yet again, i found myself cataleptic. it was finally getting a little light out so i decided to try and actually leave my body and go to the Sacred Spot (at a local park), which has been my next conscious intention. i imagined leaving my body and began affirming "i am projecting/ i am floating." i began imagining the Sacred Spot in all its details, but i was still at the location of my body. frustrated and confused, i focused all my attention on the Sacred Spot, demanding to be there immediately. but i couldn't get out.
finally, i heard the sounds of a woman laughing, right in my ear. exhausted in surrender, i woke myself up.
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